這是一篇我和一個為未來方向所苦的男生的來往的信
同一天　另一位女孩 ＥＭＡＩＬ 給我類似的內容
我回信給他們提到一些心路歷程
在這裡跟大家分享

ＲＯＳＩ來自墨西哥　正在享受這短暫的夕陽

有幾天沒有上你的網站 剛剛上去看了
當然也看到你的重大消息
這是你跟神的約定 我當然是支持你的決定
也會用禱告來成為你的支持…

不過老實說 雖然我尊重 也支持你的決定
不過你的決定給了我不小的震撼
因為目前的我正遭受很大的考驗
因著你的消息 讓我更加的迷惘與不知所措

或說當我決定要回應神的呼召時
試煉也隨之來臨 首先就是來自父母親的反對壓力
當時還聯合一些在家族裡面 德高望重的長輩一起勸說
讓我的壓力真的很大很大
後來 我決定要準備研究所考試 一方面是自己真的有想要學的東西
另一方面 也讓一直在勸說的父母 暫時避口不再勸說
讓我的耳朵跟心情得以恢復平靜…
不過事情並沒有就這樣結束 許多現實的問題
開始打擾我 開始在讓我的決心動搖
我看見未來要承擔的經濟壓力
我看見未來我必須負的家庭責任
有時候 身為一個中國人 這些真的是很難說放下不管的
還有未來的伴侶…
一直沒有對象 讓我感到有些寂寞
總之 內心裡面的掙扎 讓我陷入頗低潮的光景
不被人了解內心想做的事 以及 沒有女朋友
雙重孤單下的孤單 真的很孤單

有人會安慰我 一切都在上帝的計畫當中
這我也知道阿 不過對於正在低潮中的我來說
這真的安慰不了我…

Sam

Dear Sam:

There is a saying about these people who were looking for the purpose of life.

“God’s invitation for you to work with Him always leads you to a crisis of belief that requires faith and action”

(experiencing God, H.T. Blackaby and C. V. King)

However, in the real life it seems like so unrealistic and not reasonable. The pressure from family, future plans, not many who understood your devotion…. These are typical obstacles ahead of a missionary.

I can share with you few stories of mine if you visit my website www.raygogo.net under my profiles. There are dramatic stories about my plans all went into ground and he guides me to be part of something big in His sovereign plan.

There are so many ways to be involved of missions. Most of them are just as easy as you go somewhere and have a vacation. The only price you have to pay is the willing to do so!!! ……

I have to conquer my fear to be alone as well. However, the price I paid gladly, so far.

The reason I am here, and even thinking of extending, is simply to prove one thing. It is NOT as hard as people think. And my burden is clear—to mobilize the sleeping churches and challenge young people to step out of their comfort zone. You are at the edge of break through. Press on. I am here.

Ray in Genova, Italy

Ray Peng from Taiwan

Tour/PR team leader MV DOULOS

PRAY.GO@GMAIL.COM